Fearsome

When asked what my biggest fear is, I normally respond with

blindness.

Besides the physical fears,
I think my biggest fear is actually incompetence.
Not necessarily fearing being incompetent.
But fearing
to seem incompetent.
Incapable.
Inadequate.
Inept.

I think there is a good number of people 

who probably bring to pass my fear.

Because I get nervous in a lot of 

social settings. So I am usually quiet or awkward with 

[name any person who is not a family member/close friend].

Not because I am afraid of talking. But 

because my brain freezes 

And I think,

"Did I ever learn how to speak this language?"

To which I think, 

"Yes. I did learn how to speak this language, as a matter of fact."

Anyway,

Moral of the story,

I wish I could break out of that

because there is more to me than I think a lot of people know or see.

And I am not quite sure how to change that.